ok first blog in some time. ill keep this shorter then what i really want to make it but i thought id share a little glimpse into whats happening with me nowadays.  ok so where to start. thats awlays the hardest part isnt it?

 

ok first and foremost i have been in such a horrible mood the last few weeks. i cant remember to many times of being in such a horribly numbing and infuriating time ever in my life.

i want to cut off my left hand and just say screw it all to hell. it still isnt healed completly, they are pretty sure its at about 30%-50%, but still want me to do nothing more then move the wrist. so no lifting a gallon of milk, turning a steering wheel, swinging a wiffle ball bat, anything.

the recovery from my surgery really has put a dark cloud over my life, especially the last month and a half.  ive been missing out on drift events, cant join a softball league that i was super excited about, and the worst made me lose my job.   it truly is effecting every aspect of my life, even my social interactions with people. im in such a pessimistic mood that i think ill never get back to normal and will just have to live with either the horrible pain that comes from trying to do everyday activities like buttoning my pants, to opening doors or end up with another surgery and then see what happens from there.

ok enough complaining, im sorry that this blog wasnt full of fun events and insightful retrospects.  thanks for listening to me whine and complain for abit

 

canks!